As Christy Brown, played by the inimitable Daniel Day-Lewis in the movie My Left Foot, said, ‘This was written during my blue period’. Many of my poems were. I find writing them to be a powerful cathartic experience. Here is one of my favourites.
Soul Blink
My soul blinks.
I forget to see.
I do not breathe.
I do not heed.
I am buried in a moment.
I am seeking my unconscious.
But I do not see.
I can glimpse it.
I am almost there.
It’s reality,
Makes me blindly scared.
I will persist in my ignorance.
My blindness.
My all.
To truly,
Face it,
Is to recognize
The squall.
Ignorance is bliss.
I daily kiss,
My misgivings,
And my shame.
I play the unforgiving
Mind game.
It’s beyond banal.
I profess intelligence.
But in burying my soul,
I am not whole,
Just a shell.
I need to begin to feel well.
As the emptiness pervades,
I am the only one that can save
My sorry soul.
And attempt to feel whole.
For this sadness is not me.
It is not who I want to be.
I am bored with my sad ego.
But I don’t know where to go.
I am better than self-pity.
I am funny, kind and witty.
I will overcome this sadness.
This intermittent madness.
I will face this challenge.
My Everest, my future gladness.
I will somehow realize,
The surprise is me.
The beauty I have within.
The goodness I project.
That tries to have no effect.
On my self-worth.
I am beginning my soul re- birth,
Of my heart and my soul.
Of recognizing
All that I am,
All that I am not,
All that I remember,
All that I forgot,
To exalt my senses,
My mind,
All that is true.
For today.
Thank you
God.
I shall begin again
Anew.
By Adele Leahy
